I guess you could say, that life for me over the last 3 years has not been an easy road to travel. In 2012 my husband and I were expecting our third baby, our third precious Son.
He looked at me and said “your baby is in danger”.
He weighed a very tiny 617 grams.
|His First Hat|
The doctors assumed I had pneumonia, but after the 11th try of antibiotics weren’t improving my lungs, they suspected an auto immune disease. After a muscle biopsy, and daily test’s, it was confirmed, my immune system was trying to shut down my lungs, and muscles.
I’ve learnt to walk again, been through almost a year of physio, chemo and intense steroids.
Well, how do I look at the positives in all of this?
They say, whatever doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger. I’ve walked a lot of this journey,kicking and screaming for the ride to stop. I’ve begged for answers, and prayed until I had nothing left.
I wanted to run away, but couldn’t. I was broken.
So where did I put my trust?
In the only one who was big enough to deal with these health issues, and strong enough to hold my pain. God. I found it easier to dump it all at His feet, I met Him face to face. He accepted me as I was, a broken wreck, needing a miracle. Life didn’t get easier, but my faith became stronger!
I learnt to see the small positives in every day,
I became thankful instead of fearful. I stopped seeing myself as a broken wreck, and saw what God saw… the potential, and the worth. I started eating well- healthy foods made a huge difference. I stopped needing to have everything under control, organised and clean.
We stopped with the sterile environment and swapped it with FUN. I became creative, and the joy came back. Life is only what we make of it.
Choose to see the positives!.